usmcsis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i'm just a girl... if you read my previous entry, sorry about that, try to forget it okay? i refuse to delete it because remembering how i was feeling at a particular time is important. we learn from these things. anyway, if you didn't read, don't bother. so, the old layout annoyed me to no end. i had things i wanted to do to it but i didn't have the patience to do them so i scrapped it. i went with one of andrew's original layouts and then after looking at it for a few minutes decided that it was in serious need of a makeover. and so that is why i am sitting here at nearly two in the morning when i should be in bed. beavis had a seziure tonight. sorry about having to rush off aim fal. he has doggie epilepsy. his whole body goes all rigid and stiff and he can't move and he can hardly breath because he can't make his lungs work. it's horrible. tonight he was on mama's bed when it hit and he was trying to get up and he ended up falling off the bed. mama screamed when she saw what was going on and i got to her room just in time to see him hit the floor. i snatched him up, yelled at mama to go get his pills. daddy came and took him from me and he and i forced a pill into b's mouth and then forced him to swallow it. one of the bad things about his seizures is that none of his muscles will work, meaning he cannot swallow his pills on his own. not good. we waited about five minutes or so and the pill should have kicked in by that time but it didn't and b's whole body was shaking. he was going into convulsions so we got another pill into him and in about five more minutes it was subsiding. it is the most horrible thing to see him go through one of those. you can see the fear and pain in his eyes. it's awful and you feel so helpless. he hasn't had a seizure now in well over a year. it's a scary thing. i'll never forget the first day he had one. i was home alone with him and he had to come and wake me up. it was awful. i totally freaked out. it still freaks me out just to think about it. i had just been laid off from heilig-meyers. normally, i would have been at work at that time of day. what if he had been home all by himself? well on that cheerful note i'm going to try to get a couple of hours of sleep before i have to go to work. toodles 1:54 am - 04 Feb 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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