usmcsis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it's thursday already? the doctor told daddy this morning that, officially, they do not expect grandma to recover at all. her kidneys have failed, she cannot keep her blood pressure up without medication, she cannot breathe without the respirator, her pancreas has stopped functioning and they are having to give her insulin shots because her blood sugar is too high. and so on and so forth. basically, we already figured, well, mama and i, that she would not recover but now that the doctor has made it official, it changes things a bit. daddy needs to get in touch with his sister and they are going to have to decide what they want to do as far as leaving her on the life support and waiting for her to code on her own, or taking her off and letting her go now. it's a horrible decision, one i'm glad that i won't have to make because both of my parents have already made written instructions as to their wishes. i know this is horrible for him. he has fought so hard to live in the past couple of years that he hates the thought of robbing her of that. but i feel that her fight is over and they are robbing her of true peace now by leaving her connected to all of those horrible machines. but i'm just being there for him in a quiet support rather than making my opinion known. i think he knows how i feel. he and mama have discussed it and she and i feel the same way. right now the most important thing for him to know is that i am here for him and for grandma in any way they need me. i'm closing tonight so i'm going in at two. i'm planning to be ready to get out of there by ten, ten-fifteen at the latest so that i can go by the hospital for a few minutes before i come home. but for now i need to go get ready for work. toodles 12:22 pm - 18 Nov 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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