usmcsis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fuck cancer my parents were friends with this couple years ago and the wife found out she had cancer out of the blue. she had no idea anything was wrong with her. everyone thought she was healthy as a horse. four weeks after they found out she had cancer she died. people said it was because she got so depressed that she just gave up. seeing my dad today was really hard. he is so depressed. the things he said, the comments he made, it's like he's already given up a little bit. i'm scared that he'll give up before he even has a chance to fight this. he's going to be sitting home day after day worrying about things and wondering what this shit is doing inside his body. i want to talk to my mom about her getting my dad to see a therapist to help him with the depression but i don't know if he'll do it. hell, even if he does go, it may not do any good. jeff's mom sees a therapist and she's still depressed. of course she's hung in there this long... it's weird, daddy and diana (jeff's mom) have the exact opposite types of cancer. daddy's blood cells are attacking each other and dying off and diana's are over producing. jeff and daddy joked today that maybe they could work out some kind of exchange. *insert feeble laugh* as we were backing out of the driveway when we left the first thing jeff said to me was how are you doing? he knew that it was hard for me to hear my daddy talk like that. even jeff noticed that he was depressed. i'm so scared. it's not fair. what has he ever done to anyone but try to be a good husband, a good father, brother, son. and he is dammit! he's worked himself damn near to death since he was 8 years old to take care of his family. he fought in a war where he saw his best friends die but he made it and came home. he's worked the same job for over 30 years to take care of us, to pay the bills and put food on the table. we were far from rich but will and i never wanted for anything. cancer is the great equalizer i guess. it doesn't care if you're a good person or not. it doesn't care if you're rich or poor, white, black, red or green. if it wants you, it gets you. 11:40 pm - 10 Aug 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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