usmcsis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- selfish fucking bastard why do you have to be such a selfish fucking bastard? don't i do anything and everything for you? if it needs to be done or even if it's just something that you want done, how many times do you even have to ask me to do it? hardly ever. and why is that? because i know what needs to be done or what you want done so i do it. and why is that? because i want you to be happy. i love you and i put the people i love before myself. but when i need or want something done it's like pulling goddamn teeth with you. i have to beg and plead and even then half the time you still don't do it and when you do, you half ass it. why do you do this? why can't you put me ahead of yourself just once. it's not like i asked you to rob a bank for me or something. one simple fucking thing that i asked you to do but no, you're too goddamn tired or too this or too that or you'll do it later only later never comes. why do i let this get to me? you've been this way for as long as i've known you. i'm used to it and i usually just deal with it and go on but for some reason tonight it really pissed me off. but do i tell you that it pissed me off? no. your ass is in there asleep while i'm sitting up writing a fucking diary entry. i think i need my meds dosage upped. 10:06 pm - 15 Mar 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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