usmcsis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- holy hump day, batman! so another entry tonight. i don't have a lot to say. i was riding around a little bit ago and i was thinking of all this stuff that i wanted to talk about here but now i don't think i want to. maybe i'll write it out elsewhere so i can tweak it and consider it before i post it. it's nothing major, no big earth shattering news or anything, just a few random thoughts. anyway, so i'm off tomorrow. no big plans other than maybe going to the library. i don't know if i'll go now though because i started reading The Grapes of Wrath today. have you seen this book? it's friggin huge. i mean, i love a long book and i do read fairly quickly. and if i'd get my butt of the web and read i'd probably finish it by the weekend. but, i know that if i go to the library i'll find a half dozen other books that i want to read and then i'll have to read them before they're due back and i'll stop in the middle of Grapes and then when i get back to it i'll have to either backtrack or start over and i'm not in the mood to do that. well, this has to be the most exciting entry i've ever written. lol i've met two more guys in the past week on eHarmony, which is where i met brandon, and they are both really nice and everything and we have some things in common but it sucks because i haven't "clicked" with either of them and i don't know if i even want to talk to them and get to know them anymore at this point. it's weird, brandon and i clicked so well so fast and now it's all kind of different. i hadn't planned on talking to anyone else on there after i met him. none of my other matches even compared, but then two weeks ago when he decided i was moving too fast for him i figured i'd give it another try and see if i could get my fifty bucks worth. i mean, i'm not looking for a relationship per say, i'm interested in a friendship and should said friendship develop over time into a bigger relationship then great and if i end up getting to know someone new and having a friend then that's great too. one of the guys i met today told me that i was very pretty (and no sherlock, it wasn't a ten year old picture lol) which made me wonder if he might have a substance abuse problem. i'm kidding. :) it's just that there's no clicking, no chemistry. and of course i know that online chemistry and IRL chemistry are two totally different things but still, there should be some initial clicky-ness shouldn't there? or maybe not. maybe i've spent my whole life in such fucked-up relationships that i can't even recognize a potential "normal" one. whatever the hell that means. . . so, yeah, i hadn't planned to actually get into any of that. with all that said, i'm out of here. there is mahjong to play, ibepiglet's diary to peruse, and a huge honking book to read. night. 10:14 pm - 04 Aug 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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