usmcsis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- feeling like shit and whining about it i have really truly started to hate my job. hate isn't even a strong enough word. despise works a little better. i want to go to school. however, despite the fact that my 29th birthday is rapidly approaching, i have no idea what i want to do when i grow up. well, i do know what i want to do. i want to write. but i also know that i will probably never make a living doing it. i was looking into taking some classes, finally getting a degree after all this time, and i was thinking journalism would be the closest thing to what i really enjoy doing. alas, no one online offers a degree in journalism. and the only local college that does is in the city and i would have to take night classes and it would take me roughly a hundred years to complete. and even foregoing the hundred years part, it isn't feasible because i just can't do night classes in the city. one, i don't do driving in the city very well. two, i don't do driving at night very well either. put the two together and you have a wonderful life chock full of panic attacks on the interstate. good times. i just feel stuck right now. i need a change. i want more out of my life but i'm not sure how to get it. i want to do something everyday that makes me happy. or at least, doesn't make me miserable. i want to have a life. however, due to my self-imposed hermit-hood of the past couple of years, i don't even know how to go about getting one. i have no friends that i can go out with, no friends to introduce me to their man's friend's cousin's step-brother. i long to be one of those chicks that complains that all of her non-single friends keep trying to set her up. okay, i'm kidding. i don't really want friends who try to foist me off on every single man in a ten mile radius. regular non-foisting friends would do. how the fuck do i do that? i work, i read, i walk. where do i meet people? *sigh* my life is beyond pathetic. toodles 9:14 pm - 21 Apr 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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